Do Something Crazy!!!

So, I get this feeling often, the urge to just go out and do something crazy like get tatted up or shave my head, get something pierced, something that makes me feel ALIVE!!!! It's crazy, I know. And fortunately for everyone involved, I don't actually go out in a drunken haze and do this type of stuff. But then other times I totally regret not doing this stuff when I was in college, I wasn't looking for a job, or trying to be a respectable part of our boring society. I REGRET NOT BEING CRAZIER!!! Now that I am 1 month shy of being 24, I feel like I'm too old to go out and be a rebellious teenager that comes home with oddly colored hair, my lip pierced, and my boyfriend's name permanently written right above my ass (ok, that last part would NEVER happen, it's against my beliefs). So then recently I hear this awesome Avril Lavigne song, "What the Hell", and the lyrics totally speak to me!!!! Not the 'cheating on my man and making out w/ his friends' part, but the chorus:

All my life I've been good but now, 

I'm thinking 'What the hell' 

All I want is to mess around, 

and I don't really care about 

If you love me, if you hate me, 

you can't save me, baby, baby 

All my life I've been good but now, 

whoa 'What the hell' 

I can seriously relate to this sentiment!!! I'm tired of living up to certain people's expectations of me instead of the expectations that I set for me! Now, those my take some time to get figured out, but that's what self-discovery is all about. Now I doubt very seriously that I will come home with my lip pierced anytime soon (my parents would kill me) or a mohawk (my parents AND my boyfriend would kill me), but I think the next major change in my appearance will be a new cut and dye job a la Rihanna before she got beat and proved to be a little whacko. I'm talking her "Shut Up and Drive" hairdo! I love love LOVE that cut, it's so me. And the awesomeness grows exponentially with the fact that she has BLUE streaks on each side. I'm pretty partial to pink and/or purple (HOLLA), but I feel like the blue would fit me pretty well. It's slightly more neutral in my opinion, and since it's also pretty dark, I can get by with the Normies, and they might not notice the super hardcore closeted RoCkStAr in their midst! And of course since it would only be streaks, there are tons of ways I could potentially do this without even having to bleach any of my hair. Getting blue extensions sewed-in is one way to go, but not really my thing. I'd have to find someone to do it for me. The other option is to find some clip-in extensions, take them with me when I get my hair cut, and clip them in when I feel like being daring. I feel like this is the easy way out, but this may be the route to take if I want this 'do to be reversible. 

The tat is another thing on the to-do list. No, I don't think I want a monstrosity that covers 1/3 of my back anymore, but I feel like a small inconspicuous something that has serious meaning to me (stuck with it for life) would be acceptable. Now to pick a spot that won't stretch and sag 30 years from now. I've seen naked octogenarians (against my will), gotta be careful where ya pick! Even though I am pretty sure I would be okay with these minor body modifications, the more cautious (read:wussy) side of me is still weighing all of the options here. The pros, the cons, will I get thrown out and have the locks changed behind me...You know the deal, living at home with parents that you still have to ask for money and possibly a ride to go out. The sucktasticness of the situation is not lost on me. I also have to make sure that these "improvements" are just caused by my insecurities, and won't just make the situation worse. 

I know I have my issues with myself and my body, but I don't think that I am one of those people that will one day be addicted to painting my face for war every time I step out of my front door, and can't take out the trash without my eyeliner and mascara. I LOVE EYESHADOW!!!! Is it a crime? I know I look fine without having my eyelids the same color as my clothing... SO WHAT?!?!?! I like it!!! I'm not (i hope) forming some kind of complex, I really just like using my eyes as a canvas for me expressing myself. It's the same reason I feel more comfortable in my glasses than wearing contacts, you know besides the fact that I'm lazy. I don't wanna have to keep explaining myself! Yes, I can go outside with my face completely bare. Yes, I find it more fun to wear outrageous colors that match my clothes, or if I'm feeling super awesome then it's matching my shoes too! GET OFF MY BACK!

So I think I am gonna make a decision now: Starting on my birthday this year, I will be working on my New Year's Resolution: DO WHAT THE HELL I WANT (within reason, of course)!!! So until then, I will be shopping around to a tattoo artist, a hairstylist, a car, and a job (gotta have funds to be a rebel), and I will try to be even more of the Veracidad that you all know and love (or love to hate on). Be more of the me that I envision me being, be happy with myself the way God made me/gave me the free will to change, and fully exercise the ability to tell anyone that doesn't like it to kiss my well-endowed, disproportionate ass!